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Waiting For What?

l-132175I don’t know about you dear reader, but for me, waiting always seems easier if I know what I’m waiting for. If I know what to search my horizon for each day, then I can wait with a least some composure and patience.

How about you?

I mean, think about it. Isn’t waiting a little easier if you can scan the horizon of your life for something specific?

My most difficult waiting happens when I am waiting “in the dark.”

When my waiting is just for “the next thing.” Whatever that is? Then my waiting tends to become restless.

I begin to pace in my restricted place.

I sense change coming, but I’m not sure what kind of change.

I wonder, “Will I like this? Can I handle it? Will this thing I’m waiting for, make my life better, or swamp my boat?”

I don’t know, maybe I’m the only one who feels this way.

(Probably not.)

Bet this kind of restless-waiting is as common as dirt.

Thanks to you Habakkuk, your statement for today really helps. Especially the part where God says:

⦁ The things He plans won’t happen right away
⦁ Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches for fulfillment
⦁ Don’t despair… be patient… They won’t be overdue a single day!

I may not know what is in tomorrow, but I know who holds all my tomorrow’s in His plan.

That calms my restlessness.

(A little.)

The DREAM~MAKER’S Promise:

For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But in the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, it will not tarry. Habakkuk 2:3Habakkuk 2:3
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3 For the vision is yet for the appointed time, and it hurries toward the end, and won’t prove false. Though it takes time, wait for it; because it will surely come. It won’t delay.

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A Caterpillar’s Prayer:

Everywhere I look, everything I read, everyone I listen to, seems to be saying the same thing: Delay is not denial. God, why don’t I learn? Why don’t I change? In my head, I know that waiting on You and Your plan is the smartest thing anyone can do… so why is it, that doing the “smart” thing… hurts. so. darn. much?

Huh?

A Bruised Reed and A Broken Heart

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I have become good friends with my fellow captives from the bible.

Joseph, David, Jeremiah, Jonah, and of course, Job.

I can relate to their frustration, their questions, and their bruised hearts. I, too, have days where I bruise my heart against the stone walls of my captivity; the squandering of my life. It is hard not to question a God of Justice when I look at my chains.

My heart has learned to “hold it’s peace” (most days) as I review my life in this vineyard barren of fruit and dreams, but there are those days (you know the ones) when my heart wails, and my mind rails.

When the injustice of it all overwhelms my hold on a quiet patience.

My mind begins to search for an answer to all this waste… and my heart?

It bruises itself against the stones and iron bars longing for freedom and fulfillment. The dam of passions breaks, and out pours my distress, bewilderment, and yes, my anger with men and God. The only thing that keeps my faith alive on days like this is my belief in a God who cannot lie.

I look to a Heavenly Abba and take refuge in:

A bruised reed He will not break…

My tiny flame of faith finds fresh fuel in:

And smoking flax He will not quench…

And my bruised heart finds its necessary hope in the words:

He will bring forth justice for truth.

There is rest for the restless here; hope for the heartaches, and finally… peace.

The DREAM~MAKER’S Promise:

A bruised reed He will not break, and smoking flax He will not quench; He will bring forth justice for truth.  Isaiah 42:3Isaiah 42:3
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3 A bruised reed will he not break, and a dimly burning wick will he not quench: he will bring forth justice in truth.

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A Caterpillar’s Prayer:

Abba (Papa) you see all my internal struggles. All my outward expressions of frustration; the battles I fight within and without. Please help me today to internalize the peace of Your promise while externalizing the expressions of Your love and light to the ones in my life who need me. Help me… not to look at the walls that surround me, but rather to look up, and focus on Your love and faithful promises, that will see me through another day of frustration in this vineyard.