I know I’m supposed to forgive my enemies God. (I know.) But I don’t even know where to begin… there’s so much stuff!
So many wounds. (They wanted to destroy me God!) They tried. Oh, how they have tried! Over, and over, and over again, and they almost succeeded God… so many times. (You know. – You saw.)
How do you forgive someone who is dedicated to the task of destroying you?
You know sometimes I feel just like a little kid again. Dad is standing over me telling me to, “Eat my yellow squash.” (I hate yellow squash!) I know it’s good for me… but that doesn’t mean I want to do it! (Yeah… just like forgiveness.)
Jesus help me. I can’t do this on my own. (They hate me so much… they wanted me dead!) It’s there in their eyes… in their deeds. Pure hatred.
So much, I can’t even bear to look at them anymore.
Not supposed to happen. Not supposed to exist. Not, us!
(I hear it everywhere…)
“Tut-tut… shame-shame… don’t talk about it. Behave yourself… or please shut up!”
We’ve gotten so good at faking it.
Why do we in the Church think that trying to pretend to be something you are (quite obviously) not, is the way to go?
It’s everywhere, but then, so are angry Christians.
(Those crazy birds don’t have anything on us!)
Some of us are angry at the Church, the society we live in, and some of us, are really just good-and-ticked-off at ourselves. And, “Oh-my-oh-my!” some of us, are Mt. Vesuvius, ready to explode all over any poor soul who unfortunately gets a little too close!
It’s an angry world these days. Workplace violence, road rage, domestic violence in our homes, crazies attacking our kids at school, or the zealots who just plain lose it and gun folks down in our workplaces, shopping malls, and airports…
Why do we try to act like there are no angry Christians?
Is God unaware of our inner battles and angry frustrations?
(Of course not.)
Is the world?
I think they see and hear just fine.
So, why in heaven’s name, do we pretend like the problem doesn’t exist with us as well?
WP-Bible plugin] It does not say, “Pretend like you’re not angry, even when you really are, and everybody else knows it.” The bible admonishes us to deal with it quickly. Don’t let it last more than a day.
Doesn’t denial simply prolong our anger?
Personally, I think our anger goes on and on, because we continually try to deny it, bury it, or excuse it away, as something else. Let’s face it, there is a lot in this world to be angry about. I can totally relate to Jesus going into the temple, blowing His top, and overturning the money-changers tables. (The money-changers are alive and well in today’s church.) Perhaps we should, get a little more hot under the collar, when it comes to the pretense and phony posturing we see. Hypocrisy should make us angry, especially our own! Sin should make us angry.
Sins involving the exploitation of the innocent, bloodthirsty brutality, or the blatant evil we see all around us. These are the things that make God angry. The pain of the exploited and innocent. These are the things that should propel us to righteous behavior and righteous choices.
People? Especially the ones we dislike or disagree with? God valued them so much, He sent His only Son to die for them!
So, (if we are angry) perhaps we should ask ourselves some pointed questions like:
“When the Son of Man comes in His glory, and all the holy angels with Him, then He will sit on the throne of His glory.All the nations will be gathered before Him, and He will separate them one from another, as a shepherd divides his sheep from the goats.And He will set the sheep on His right hand, but the goats on the left.Then the King will say to those on His right hand, ‘Come, you blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world:for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in;I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me.’
“Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give You drink?When did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and clothe You?Or when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’And the King will answer and say to them, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me.'”Matthew 25:31-40Matthew 25:31-40 English: World English Bible - WEB 31 “But when the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the holy angels with him, then he will sit on the throne of his glory.
32 Before him all the nations will be gathered, and he will separate them one from another, as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats.
33 He will set the sheep on his right hand, but the goats on the left.
34 Then the King will tell those on his right hand, ‘Come, blessed of my Father, inherit the Kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world;
35 for I was hungry, and you gave me food to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave me drink; I was a stranger, and you took me in;
36 naked, and you clothed me; I was sick, and you visited me; I was in prison, and you came to me.’
37 “Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry, and feed you; or thirsty, and give you a drink?
38 When did we see you as a stranger, and take you in; or naked, and clothe you?
39 When did we see you sick, or in prison, and come to you?’
40 “The King will answer them, ‘Most assuredly I tell you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers The word for “brothers” here may be also correctly translated “brothers and sisters” or “siblings.”, you did it to me.’
Abba, help me to be angry about the things that make You angry. Give me the strength to let go of the stuff that is simply “the anger of fools” lest I be numbered among the foolish.
LORD, open my eyes to every opportunity You give me to make a difference in this world before You return for us. Forgive me for every time I’ve missed it… missed You, and what You wanted to do, and blown it BIG TIME!
Holy Spirit, give me wisdom to take every “talent” I’ve got and invest it for the Kingdom’s sake, for You, and for others. Lord help me see, betrayal is a huge boat, and I am not in that boat alone.