Never Losing The Light: Your Next Heartbeat

Child, do not cry out to Me as though you had to summon Me from some far off place. I am as near as your next heartbeat. The reason you don’t hear My footsteps running to your side, is because I am already here!

Don’t look with your eyes… look with your heart.

Don’t listen with your ears… listen with a ready mind.

(Ready to be still—ready to obey.)

You don’t have to make long pious prayers to get Me to move on your behalf.

(No child, not that way… this way.)

Get quiet.

Tune out the world.

Tune in My word.


I will act when the time is right.

My ways, remember, they’re not your ways.

Never Losing the LightHow many times have I answered you before you even called?

(You’ve lost count.)

Selah, child.



(This panic is not in your best interest.)


(Then there will be peace.)

Ah, you see?

Quiet yourself.

Come aside and rest awhile.

You must learn how to navigate a storm without letting the storm enter your spirit.

(Quiet now. Yes, that’s it.)

Never Losing The Light

I cannot sleep until you act. I am too distressed even to pray.”

Psalm 77:4Psalm 77:4
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4 You hold my eyelids open. I am so troubled that I can’t speak.

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Plucky Writer With Destined Purpose

C. S. Lewis said, “Write about what really interests you, whether it is real things or imaginary things, and nothing else. (Notice this means that if you are interested only in writing you will never be a writer, because you will have nothing to write about…)

Writing is definitely not for sissies! But, if it is what you were born to do? What choice do you have?

I believe joy and destiny walk together.

DestinyI also think that this business of destiny is often like an illusive butterfly. If you chase it? You will find yourself running up and down many dead-ends and blind alleys.

But, if you stand still?

If you wait for The Author of Life and listen to His call?

Ah, then, destiny may float down and land softly on you!

That is how becoming a writer was for me.

I did not set out to become “a writer.”

On the contrary, I remember the day I purchased my first blank journal. I was at my bursting point with frustration. I was desperate! I needed a healthy way to channel all my pent-up energy.

journalSo I bought myself a pretty,  flowery collection of blank pages… (I had no idea what I was going to do with them.) I just began pouring out all that frustration and confusion, figuring that if I dumped it onto the blank page?

I just might find some kind of blessed release.

And so I wrote, and wrote… and wrote!

And I did feel better!

For years I “wrote” my questions, my confusion, my hopes and dreams—finding in the writing—a way to peace of mind and heart.

I still had no idea of becoming a writer. (Are you kidding?) That was for the elite brainiacs! The confident verbose. The royally educated. Me? I was just looking for a way to keep a healthy hold on my sanity.

Then, one day I got it!

I had been writing for ten years and I had filled a trunk full of journals.

A kind of wonder came floating down filling me with this deep sense of joy and purpose.

And I marveled, “So this is destiny?”


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A Closer Walk: The Excellence of Grace

No one is as hard on me as I am—and I do realize that some of that—is the way I was raised.

My parents preached excellence to their kids.

I remember constantly hearing as I was growing up,”That everything I do, should be done with a spirit of excellence.”

The Excellence of Grace

Always my folks would tell us that they wanted “our very best” at all times.

Nothing wrong with teaching kids to strive for their best, but somewhere in my head (again) the word “best” got tweaked into the word “perfect” and that is impossible to pull off.

I still struggle with a healthy tension between excellence and perfection. (Don’t a lot of us?) It’s so easy to get sidetracked from doing my best, to striving for the unrealistic and unattainable perfectly-perfect.

(And, as we all know, the reach for perfection is a deadly-confidence-killer!)

Perfect just ain’t gonna happen no matter how hard we try. (Not in this life!) That’s why this simple little word “grace” is such a life-changing concept for someone like me; the guy who is so tempted to go for all-of-the-gusto, all of the time.

Giving grace to others, encouraging them to hang in there and not quit… that comes to moi, like rolling off a log. But, I have to admit, my “flaw-finder” is superb when I am looking at myself; at what I am planning, doing, creating… etc., etc., etc. No matter how sweet the complement, or how genuine the praise, that insidious little flaw-finder in my head, will kick in and go straight for (and magnify) the-only-thing… I should have done better.

(Heavy sigh.)

Enter… GRACE. Ta-Da!

The ONE SIMPLE THING that will save me every time: His grace… His sweet grace… His loving grace… forgiving grace… cheering-for-me grace… the ALWAYS THERE, new every sunrise, air-that-I-breathe, manna in the morning …grace.

Excellence splashed by grace

How serenely simple is the grace of God! Even a child can comprehend their need. (And oh darlin’ I do desperately need Him.) Each day. In every way, have-to-have-Him, and His grace. I want to roll in it, like a little kid rolls in mud, getting the gooey, lovely stuff, all over me!

A man I deeply respect once said, “Simplicity is a clear window.”

A lot of light bulbs went on in me when I heard those words.

That’s what grace is. Simple. So simple it’s easy for all of us to miss it. So, let’s not.

The Excellence of GraceInstead, let’s all abide in gratitude today, whatta ya say?

Let’s wallow in the always enough of Jesus Christ’s sweet loving grace.

Let’s splash around in the stuff splattering it on others. And to be sure… let’s save a few heaping handfuls for ourselves!

May we come up from that “Wilderness of Perfection” LEANING on GRACE for each stumbling-step—trusting that we are kept as His Beloved in spite of all our many failures.

Ah, the simplicity of grace.

What a lovely clear window you are!



Whether My grace falls in dew, or in showers, it will always be enough.

That is all you really need to know. Not, “Will it be good? Will it be bad?” No, no, these things matter not. They lead to a tenseness in your spirit, and anxiety, and worry.

(Am I there?)

Of course not!

My sweet child, all you have to do each day, is walk in the path prepared for you. I AM leading; I go before you.

For My children in days gone by I provided manna.

The Excellence of GraceAlways enough.

For you, it is grace, and like the manna of old it will be there for you each morning.

(Always there, for I AM there, too.)

Where I abide, grace abounds!

Did you get that?

As you obey, forgive, love… I abide. My grace flows freely from wherever My Spirit abides.

As you walk in the fruit of My Spirit grace flows freely from your life.

There is always enough for you and others!

It is the way to express constant power and strength.

(Now you see?)

But… I warn you. As in the manna of old, you may not store this grace from what you did yesterday, last week, or last month.

The Excellence of GraceMy mercies are new every morning.

Besides, you’ve experienced stale grace.

(Tasteless stuff!)

Not for you dearest… not for you. I want you to receive fresh new mercies, like morning dew, or summer rain.

Each day—as much as you need!

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“…and your strength shall be renewed day by day like morning dew.”

Psalm 110:3Psalm 110:3
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3 Your people offer themselves willingly in the day of your power, in holy array. Out of the womb of the morning, you have the dew of your youth.

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Never Losing The Light: A Familiar Pirate Called Pain

Yes… you can.

(Yes, you can.)

You have made friends with this pirate.

Your pain is an old and familiar comrade, that is all.

Pain is a pirate!Listen, remember friends who turned out not to be friends, after all? They had hidden agendas and motives and goals that you did not “see” in the beginning—remember?

Well, your pain is also a false friend. A pirate you’ve become familiar with…

But familiarity and friendship are not the same thing.

Your painful memories are familiar but toxic.

That is why you must lay down your love for them. You must surrender your sympathy for this wounded self.

(Yes, you must.)

You must face your pain, thank it for what it has taught you, and send it on its way.

(I will help you.)

You’re not in this alone. But you know by now, I run My Kingdom by choice and free will. I cannot heal you if you refuse to lay down your crutches.

Think of it… a healed man or woman, hobbling around on crutches, clutching their painful memories, and looking for sympathy?


No, I won’t do it.

You must decide who you love more…

Your memories… or Me?

The Pirate of Pain

“I think of God and moan, overwhelmned with longing for His help.”

Psalm 77:3Psalm 77:3
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3 I remember God, and I groan. I complain, and my spirit is overwhelmed. Selah.

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Psalm 64: Rest In The LORD The Battle Is His

“Listen to me… “The Lord says, ‘Don’t be afraid! Don’t be paralyzed by this mighty army! For the battle is not yours, but God’s!

[2 Chronicles 20:152 Chronicles 20:15
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15 and he said, Listen you, all Judah, and you inhabitants of Jerusalem, and you king Jehoshaphat: Thus says Yahweh to you, Don’t be afraid you, neither be dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God’s.

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I have learned that there are some battles you can’t win. Indeed, there are some battles you don’t want to win—not if you want to live a life that is pleasing to God.

The battle I refer to here is the one against slander.

Nasty stuff slander. You don’t enter this battle without getting this muck all over you.

It’s hard walking away from slander. (Oh, yeah!) I usually want to pick up my sword and give as good as I get.

(Know what I mean?)


The problem with that scenario is that, then, everyone loses.

No weapon!Nope, the best thing is to give this battle to God.

Find a promise and stand on it.

If God says He can handle it—He will handle it!

Pour out your heart.

Then, REST in His promises to you.

He has this.


Psalm 64 BattleLord, listen to my complaint: Oh, preserve my life from the conspiracy of these wicked men, these gangs of criminals.  They cut me down with sharpened tongues; they aim their bitter words like arrows straight at my heart.  They shoot from ambush at the innocent. Suddenly the deed is done, yet they are not afraid.  They encourage each other to do evil. They meet in secret to set their traps. “He will never notice them here,” they say.  They keep a sharp lookout for opportunities of crime. They spend long hours with all their endless evil thoughts and plans.

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All who see it happening will scoff at them.  Then everyone shall stand in awe and confess the greatness of the miracles of God; at last they will realize what amazing things he does.  And the godly shall rejoice in the Lord, and TRUST and praise him.Sword of the WORD

Psalm 64:1-10Psalm 64:1-10
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64 For the Chief Musician. A Psalm by David. 1 Hear my voice, God, in my complaint. Preserve my life from fear of the enemy. 2 Hide me from the conspiracy of the wicked, From the noisy crowd of the ones doing evil; 3 Who sharpen their tongue like a sword, And aim their arrows, deadly words, 4 To shoot innocent men from ambushes. They shoot at him suddenly and fearlessly. 5 They encourage themselves in evil plans. They talk about laying snares secretly. They say, “Who will see them?” 6 They plot injustice, saying, “We have made a perfect plan!” Surely man’s mind and heart are cunning. 7 But God will shoot at them. They will be suddenly struck down with an arrow. 8 Their own tongues shall ruin them. All who see them will shake their heads. 9 All mankind shall be afraid. They shall declare the work of God, And shall wisely ponder what he has done. 10 The righteous shall be glad in Yahweh, And shall take refuge in him. All the upright in heart shall praise him!

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The battle is His.

A Closer Walk: Leaning Into Freedom

It has taken me almost a lifetime to value weakness; to learn the strength of leaning and the freedom in surrender.

(I’m not comfortable with leaning but not for the obvious reasons.)

I have been accused of the sin of pride and in some cases it was true. (Don’t we all sometimes struggle with pride?) But God has shown me that it was not because of pride that I despised my weaknesses.

Leaning of GodIt was fear.

I have done hand-to-hand combat with feelings of fear and worthlessness all of my life. (Confess your sins to one another that you might be healed, right?) Craven-Fear, just like in the story Hinds Feet On High Places, has dogged my steps from my earliest days.

As far back as I can go—fear has haunted my steps.

Even today, this leaning is sometimes difficult.

Let me explain.

My father did most of my parenting. He was a strong guy; a stoic personality rarely showing weakness to anyone. If his powerful reserve did slip, even for a moment, there would be embarassment and obvious shame. Since I adored my father as a child, I got the lasting message that weakness was shameful. Each time I saw his attempts to suppress his own weakness, I learned by his example.

Let me add here, I don’t think he did this conciously or purposely, but it is a strange paradox, that this was his weakness—fearing his own vulnerability.

It isn’t considered STRONG is it?

(If only men realized how much most women value vulnerability… but that’s a post for another day.)

I don’t believe we esteem transparency and vulnerability as much as we admire strong and brave.

I certainly didn’t, and because I didn’t, it has taken God a good part of my journey with Him to “unlearn” all my early lessons for the stoic—to teach me the value of my own weakness, rather than being ashamed of it, or embarrassed by it.

As a child, I wanted to be “strong” like my dad.

I thought that meant always being in control of myself and never letting things show. I tried to keep any sign of weakness carefully hidden. I so longed to make my dad proud of me; to see me… and value me.

In earlier days, when my own pictures of “strong” ruled my heart, any betrayal of weakness was met with either fear, or shame.

Perhaps that is precisely why God has bestowed the “gift of tears” on me. (I wonder?) I am a major softie! I easily cry at the most inopportune moments, and to this day, my tears totally embarrass me.

(Uh-oh, weakness showing!)

Unfortunately, the harder I try to “stuff them” the more they flow. Very frustrating! Thank goodness God is finally pounding it into my thick skull how much He values a tender heart.

Leaning Into FreedomNow, instead of seeing my weakness and vulnerability as flaws, I try to see them as a surrender to SOFTER things; to a gentle tenderness.

(And, I call it GOOD!)

It took a long time to get here, but many miles of rocky road later, I now try to see my vulnerability through God’s eyes. My weakness is just another opportunity to lean on His STRONG.

(And that is so good!)



Remember when you were struggling so?

(I do.)

Think back—remember the way your weakness made you so dependent? How you hated that feeling of helplessness.

(I know.)

Some say it is pride that makes you hate your weakness (and sometimes it is) but that is not the real reason you despise your weaknesses. (Shall I tell you?) It is your fear, with roots that reach down deep into your childhood.

Leaning Into FreedomYou grew up alone. Rarely did anyone help you with the things that really mattered. Oh, your house was full of people, but they were all coming and going, trying to keep up with their own fears. Most of your childhood was spent trying to parent yourself and so you grew more timid and frightened with each childish failure. You were so little. The world so big.

Shall I tell you?

I wept many times at the way you were abandoned and ignored.

How painful it was to watch you struggle, first with fear, then with anger over your failures and insecurities. No wonder you grew up intolerant of your weaknesses! Remember how you tried to hide them as a child? You thought if you could only be perfect, someone might notice you, might love you.

Oh, SweetHeart, I know. I saw. It’s okay to weep over those sad times. They truly were difficult days, but you are grown now—you know Me. We are one, you and I. It’s okay now to let go and just be yourself weaknesses and all. Lean on Me. From this day on, I’ll be The Strong One.

You? You just be, yourself.

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“He gives power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increases strength.”

Isaiah 40:29Isaiah 40:29
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29 He gives power to the faint; and to him who has no might he increases strength.

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Cleansing Stream ~ (New Song #12)

Oh Cleansing Stream how fresh and free,

That flows and flows from Calvary’s tree.

My Savior then! My Shepherd now!

Come rescue me—oh Purity’s Stream.

Unto Yourself, oh take me… hide,

Forever ‘neath Your crystal tide.

Wash my heart from lies and pain,

Refresh… revive my soul again!


Oh Cleansing Stream…

Come flow through me,

Make me pure — alive and free!

I fall in YOU as one who dreams—

Swallow me in Your Crimson Stream.


Unto my Self I now have died,

Never more to leave Your side.

Oh Cleansing stream, My Life! My All!

Envelope me—remove the gall,

That poisons mind and heart alike.

I come! I run! Into Your flow,

Wash me pure as whitest snow!


Your Cleansing Stream…

Now flow through me,

Forever Thine! Forever free!

My victory won! My sweetest dream!

Your Gushing Life! My Living Stream!

I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. Psalm 143:6Psalm 143:6
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6 I spread forth my hands to you. My soul thirsts for you, like a parched land. Selah.

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He that believeth on me… out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.  John 7:38John 7:38
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38 He who believes in me, as the Scripture has said, from within him will flow rivers of living water.”

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Never Losing The Light: Surrendering Memories

Surrendering memories is not easy, but no, I won’t TAKE your memories from you. You must CHOOSE to lay them down in surrender to Me.

I have so much more for you—so much LIFE!

surrender the memoriesBut, you must surrender these things bringing death to your spirit; things like unforgiveness, resentment, bitterness, anger, jealousy, envy—these are poison child.

You want Me to free you, but I tell you, YOU are the jailer of your soul. You hold the keys.

How I long for your freedom—your joy.

(You long for it, too.)

I know. But, not enough yet.

(That’s right… not enough.)

You want to be free while holding on to these toxic emotions.

It can’t be done.

(Do you hear Me…)

Let go!

Yes, what was done to you was wrong.

(You don’t understand?)

Shall I tell you a secret?

There is no “understanding” SIN.

There is only surrendering it—then there is the overcoming!

That is why I came.

That is why I died.

To cover you with the overcoming blood sacrafice…

To transform your pain…

To peace.

Never Losing the Light“Never envy the wicked! Soon they fade away like grass and disappear… Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him to help you do it and he will. Your innocence will be clear to everyone. He will vindicate with the blazing light of justice shining down as from the noonday sun. Rest in the Lord; wait patiently for him to act. Don’t be envious of evil men who prosper. Stop your anger! Turn off your wrath. Don’t fret and worry—it only leads to harm. For the wicked shall be destroyed, but those who trust in the Lord shall be given every blessing. Only a little while and the wicked shall disappear. You will look for them in vain.

Psalm 37: 1, 2, 5-11Psalm 37: 1, 2, 5-11
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37 By David. 1 Don’t fret because of evil-doers, Neither be envious against those who work unrighteousness. 2 For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, And wither like the green herb. 5 Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this: 6 He will make your righteousness go forth as the light, And your justice as the noon day sun. 7 Rest in Yahweh, and wait patiently for him. Don’t fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who makes wicked plots happen. 8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath. Don’t fret, it leads only to evildoing. 9 For evildoers shall be cut off, But those who wait for Yahweh shall inherit the land. 10 For yet a little while, and the wicked will be no more. Yes, though you look for his place, he isn’t there. 11 But the humble shall inherit the land, And shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

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