This is one of my favorite things about God: He never wastes words. God can pack more punch, in less space, than the finest writers who have ever lived.
On that one little word hung everything in my future.
I had come to some sort of fork in the road with God… and I knew it.
I remembered reading somewhere once, “The Lion of Judah is a WILD lion. Every time you try to cage Him, He will break loose in your life, and do the unexpected.”
Was that what I had tried to do—cage God?
When I looked the idea square in the eye, it did seem ridiculous, in the extreme.
Did I still want the things I had prayed for?
Those things had sounded so wonderful when I had asked God for them. Healing hearts, encouraging the hopeless, gathering the broken, it had all sounded so good. But this road I found myself on was not the kind of road I had expected we would take to do all of that.
I hated what had happened.
Now there it was, the honest naked truth.
I was feeling like I had been mauled by that Wild Lion.
(That was honest, too.)
No head-faking-bull… that was our deal.
My heart felt frozen staring at my choices… my mind was reeling.
We used to sing a song at the church I served at. Every time someone was baptized and they would go down into the water, they would come up to the sounds of the church singing, “I have decided to follow Jesus… no turning back… no turning back.”
No turning back.
Yes, in my heart, I knew I was at a crossroads.
Whichever road I chose there would be no turning back.
From this point forward everything would be different…
(And it terrified me.)
Child, seeing what you see now? Knowing what you know now? Would you forsake all your shame and suffering, and go back to that place of soft easy pleasure?
You have counted some of the cost to follow Me…
Would you change course; would you do things differently, if you could?
Before you go forward, these are questions you must honestly ask yourself.
Search your heart.
Think long and hard.
The path you’ve chosen is not an easy one. There are many stones along the way; jagged and cutting. There are briars and thorns. It is a narrow way, too. Many places along this path are wide enough for only two ~ you and I.
I have been sifting you. (You already know this.) But, the time is fast approaching when I will begin to sift My Church.
(You will be more alone than ever.)
Can you… will you… still go with Me?
We have to decide this now, together.
I have to know that you have looked at the danger and hardship, square in the face, and chosen freely, knowing what is to come.
You know Me well enough now to know that I will never leave you.
(I need to know the same about you.)
Make your choice.
“It was by faith that Moses… refused to be treated as the grandson of the king, but chose to share ill-treatment with God’s people… he thought it was better to suffer…” Hebrews 11:24-26