I am stumbing through grief again.
“So soon?” my heart whispered.
It seems as if I had just recovered from one huge loss when I got the jarring news that someone I loved dearly had been whisked away.
Death always jars me to my toes.
I never get used to it no matter how many times I walk through it.
And I wonder, “Is this the way it is with everyone?”
So here I am again walking through each day in a kind of a gray fog. Trying to concentrate on the next thing; the next step; the next breath; and not doing a very good job of any of it.
My eyes gush tears when I least want them.
My heart overflows with this new empty.
I am lost in a maze of memories I can’t hold back or control no matter how hard I try.
I drift. I flounder.
I reach for answers I already know I won’t find; can’t find, until Jesus and I are face to face.
I scold myself. Telling myself, “This is how it is at your age. Loss will be a regular part of normal now.”
But grappling with that truth doesn’t help much.
The bible warns us, “You do not know what a day will bring forth.”
“Yeah.” I think. “No kidding.”
Like the other day.
We had just had a nice lunch with some visiting family. A pleasant afternoon. Peaceful. Little did we suspect that in just a few short hours we would be sitting in the kitchen reminiscing and the phone would ring with words flashing across the T.V. screen — CODE RED!
I stared at the screen then at the face of my friend as her expression went from happy to grave.
She was listening intently to the message from our caller.
Then she hung up and calmly announced, “We have been told to pack up whatever we can and be prepared to evacuate.
There is a wildland fire burning north of here; it’s headed our way.”
We just stared at one another for a moment, stunned; trying to absorb the warning; trying to think. What should we do first?
What do you pack up when you have only moments to decide what needs to be saved, and what you must walk away from, and surrender to the flames?
“You do not know what a day will bring forth…” James 4:14 warns.
The ONLY thing that is certain in this life is it’s abiding and constant uncertainty.
So let me ask you a question
“What are you going to decide to do with His pearl that we call: The Gospel?”
It is the MOST important decision you will ever make.
Perhaps this is your CODE RED.
Apart from His blood that He shed on His cross FOR YOU, to cover your sin, so that you can walk into the city of God, a citizen of His Kingdom?
You have no hope of heaven!
There is no other way.
The micro-second you step into eternity your decision and the choice have been made. It will be settled for all of eternity. No arguments. No explantions. No second chances, or do-overs. Nope.
None of us know when death will come knocking at our door.
(None of us do.)
Don’t put this decision off.
Some things can wait.
To refuse to decide — is to decide.